Changing with the Seasons
I used to think I knew exactly what I wanted. I looked around at other photographers who were successful in their businesses and maybe had lots of followers and "likes" and I wanted to be just like them. I wanted to be praised for my craft by my peers, highly sought after by clients, and bring home some extra income to add value to my family. I wanted my husband to be proud of my business and brag about me to his friends. These were the dreams deep in my heart when I would scroll through my phone in the evenings or read blogposts from photographers who had "made it." And do you know what? These dreams had one thing in common. One thing at the center of them all: me.
But the Lord, in His kindness, didn't make these dreams a reality for me. Instead, over the past 3 years, he has quietly cultivated new dreams in my heart. And He has given me gifts that aren't what I expected or hoped for, but are exactly what I needed.
So now, a new vision has sprung up in my heart. One that replaces the glorification of myself at the center, with the education and adoration of Jesus in our home. As I was chasing a dream to find my identity in my creative work and approval from others, I realized my children were growing so rapidly right under my nose. My mind and my heart were roaming elsewhere and I was giving my best to an unrealized dream. All the while, this good work was given to me